A God Story: My Obedient Walk to the Castle 🏰

A God Story: My Obedient Walk
to the Castle 🏰

By: Elizabeth L. Creecy

Trusting God does not mean believing he will do what you want, but rather believing he will do everything he knows is good.”

Ken Sande

Some days I find myself asking God just to come down and talk to me through a bush or a donkey. Some days, I feel like walking with Christ is a bit of a guessing game. Do you ever feel that way?

I am currently walking out of perfectionism and always wanting to do things right. Nonetheless, some days it feels like a real guessing game. I am more risk averse. I prefer to get it right and not mess up. Do you struggle with this too?

There are days where I feel like figuring out what God wants me to do is a guessing game, which is why I find myself sometimes wishing God would come down and tell me exactly what to do in a 1+1 =2 type of way. I like clearer directions that are not ambiguous.

I know our Father does speak to us. Jesus makes that very clear in John 10:27-28.

27 My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me. 28 And I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand.

I, however, would sometimes like it to be a bit blunter and more confirmed if you get what I mean. Of course, where would faith and free will be if He did that all the time?

I promise you nothing can stop divine intervention, especially when one makes it their mission to keep seeking and knocking for God’s will (Matt 7:7-8). I want to tell you about a God story that happened to my husband and me this past April, which will also explain why two newsletters were missed. Please forgive me.

We were not planning to buy a house this year. We decided with my mom’s heart surgery, me still in school, and the amount of time we had lost with one another due to this year being so hectic, it was not worth it. Well, God had a different plan.

One day at the end of March, I woke up and felt the Lord tell me to get our family and my company taxes in order because we needed to buy a house. I was a bit confused, mainly because I was not prepared to buy a home this year, let alone in the area He wanted us to buy. I immediately responded to the Lord’s request, and by the end of that day, our taxes were filed, and by the next day, we were pre-approved to buy a house. I couldn’t believe how fast everything was!

When the finger of God is on you, it's incredible how quickly things get done sometimes!

If you have been paying attention to the real estate market over the last few months, you know it is highly emotional and irrational. When it was time for me to buy a house, I never thought the inventory would be as low and competitive as it currently is.

Usually, houses get listed each day, but like many, Richmond, Va.’s market was not like that. All new listings were released on Tuesday or Wednesday, and no new listings would be revealed until the following week when the previous listings were removed, assuming the listing was sold.

When we first started looking, there was only one house we could look at in our budget, and it was a lemon. I remember leaving that house, talking to God, saying, “Well, God, if this is the house you want us to have, then it will work, but this house doesn’t get me excited at all. Did I miss hear you, God?”

We continued to look at houses over the next few days, and everything was lame and terrifying. A few days later, I was becoming a bit overwhelmed with all variables you had to keep in mind, the price of square feet, how quickly houses were selling, and how much more people were paying over asking. At one point, our relator looked at us and said, “be prepared to pay up to 50,000 over asking if you like a house.” Like… say what now?

Each night, Austin, my husband, and I would pray for God’s will to be done. We prayed for the seller’s heart. We prayed that God would bring us the house that was right for us. In the meantime, we chose to be obedient to where God was leading us to.

Then five days after we started this process on Wednesday night, Austin and I were lying in bed looking through Realtor.com when God led me to the Castle. As I started to look at the pictures, I began to freak out with excitement. I looked at my husband and told him I had found our house! I was 100% sure it was ours too! Immediately His peace and confidence flooded me, assuming me it was in fact the house He had for us. Crazy, right? No, that’s just our Father!

I never had the worldly experience of saying “yes” to the wedding dress, but that is how that moment felt. It was like YES; this is our house – this is the house God has for us. The house was bigger and better than I ever thought I would get in a first house.

The house God brought to us was the perfect size to start and raise a family in, invite friends and family over, and such. It felt like the house was uniquely designed for me and my unique ways. It was love at first sight for us too, so much so that we nicked named our place “The Castle.” Why? Well, because the house sits at the end of a cul-de-sac on top of a hill overlooking all the other homes.

Long story short, we looked at the house the next day, put an offer in, and by Tuesday morning, we found out we were the new homeowners. We were excited that the Lord had blessed us with this home because eight other people had offers on this house. While I am delighted that the Lord brought us a more functional and larger home, the home itself is only part of the God story.

You see, I was a bit lost on which path the Lord wanted me to walk in April. I was getting persecuted for my faith at a company I contract with as a mental health coach, my mother was going through heart surgery, and I was falling behind in my duties at Renew Ministries.

Additionally, I was confused about growing Renew, if God even wanted me to continue with Renew Ministries, and what God wants this ministry to do and be. Yes, I was full of doubt and confusion. I felt very lost, but I knew the Lord was with me and would guide me. I kept praying and asking for direction, but I felt like it was not coming, and I grew impatient.

I realized that I was worried about how God would do His part – a part that I had no control over – when all I needed to focus on was being obedient to what I already knew to do. That is what buying a house taught me – great obedience and trust in the Father. My confidence in hearing the Lord grew. It was one of those moments where you want to shout to your mom and say, “Look, Mom, I’m doing it!”

Not once did I get stressed out about buying a house. Not once did I lose sleep over the place. I always knew it would be ours. The peace I had during the home buying process was surreal.

That is when it hit me. It wasn’t about getting it right per se. It was about DOING what God had asked me to do. It was about being proactive and responding to His requests, not thinking about the results of doing what He is asking.

The best way to describe it is to think of a sidewalk square with an “X” on it. The Lord told me to walk to a specific sidewalk square, and that is what I did. Wherever the Lord told me to go, I went, and I didn’t think, catastrophize, or worry about what the next step would be. I just responded to His requests. I knew He would tell me the next step once I got to the first step, and He always did. I had complete security in that. I remember the first house we looked at. God told us to go, and I was so confused, but God wanted to see how responsive and trusting of Him I would be.

My biggest takeaway from the house buying experience with God was how to efficiently be obedient to Him and not question Him or figure out how He would do His end. It’s not about thinking ahead and being strategic in months to come. It is about doing what God is asking you to do right now.

Every time I would go where God was asking me to go, the next request would be revealed, but I might not have been given that next step if I didn’t take the first step. It is so easy to allow the devil and the Spirit of Fear to overwhelm you, causing you not to move or project into the future everything you don’t want to happen. Yet, God’s asking you to trust Him, move when He tells you to move, and remember that you aren’t alone because He is always with you.

Where are you dragging your feet?
Where are you consciously being disobedient because you feel like you can’t do it or are unsure?
What will it take for you to choose to be obedient to the Father and do what He is asking?

In closing, we moved into the Castle in mid-June and then took the last week of June to celebrate my birthday and take a much-needed vacation. Unfortunately, with all the chaos and part of our house still being a construction zone, I lost track of time because sometimes life happens so fast. I apologize for that.

Prayer: Father, thank You for Your everlasting, unconditional love. I know there are times I am not obedient to You, and I repent for that. Would you please help me always to move when You say move? I want to do Your will Father and not my own. I know You have good things in store for me, even if I don’t understand them. I know I can trust You with my life, and You will not let me out of Your hand. Would you please help me to do Your will with gladness? If I have missed moving or doing what You want me to do, please bring that to my attention. I want to be a Warrior in Your Kingdom. Grow me. Teach me. Equip me. Help me only to do Your will. In Jesus’ name, Amen

Breaking My Autonomy with God

Breaking My Autonomy with God

For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.

Galatians 5:17 ESV

Over the last few months, I have been consciously working with the Lord to break my high autonomy. The Holy Spirit has recently shown me where my need for independence and control is sabotaging my walk with the Lord and putting me into disobedience. He has shown me that I must work to break this stronghold within me so He can use me and take me where He wants me to go. 

 

He asked me to write about what He told me last night. I hope it helps you become more obedient to the Lord and opens your eyes to His marvelous and brilliant ways that sometimes don’t make sense until they do.

 

Last night at around 9 pm or later, the Father spoke to me. He told me, “I am going to break your autonomy. Your autonomy is a part of your flesh, not of me. It is hindering you greatly, and it’s time we crucify it. You asked me to remove every vine that does not produce life from you, and that is what I am going to do. The question is are you going to work with me or against me?” He said all of this after I had worked a 12-hour day and was just about to get in bed. Needless to say, the last thing I wanted to do was do more work. 

First, let me share some of my desires with you. I want to be obedient to the Lord. I want to grow my faith and operate in the mind of Christ. I want to turn away from the world's ways and do God's way. I want the Father to prune me of my fleshly and selfish ways. I want to build a ministry that helps people grow stronger in the Lord. I want to join with the Father to develop Warriors for Christ.

Recently, I have been working with the Father to prune me, and I have grown tremendously by having this desire in my heart. I have asked Him to help remove every dead branch from me (John 15:2). I have meant it in my heart, which is necessary for God to work in you. I told the Lord I was willing to do whatever He needed me to do. The number one thing I want more than anything is to do God’s will in my life. 

 

Once I heard the Lord speak to me about my autonomy last night, I shared it with my husband after writing it down. You see, writing down what the Lord was telling me was the obedience and sanctification part of breaking the core parts of my autonomy. God wanted me to write down what He was telling me, so I could write about it later. Initially, I didn’t want to capture what He was saying. 

Can we say LAZY!?

Typically, when I am in the Spirit, receiving connections and revitalizations, I lazily ask the Holy Spirit to remember it so I can do what I want to do. Why? Well, because usually, it is at a time that I see as very inconvenient. Do you hear the self-righteousness in my thinking? Yuck, Father, God forgive me. I repent!

 

 The Holy Spirit usually reminds me, but always in another inconvenient time where I would rather be doing something else. You would think I would have caught on to this insight sooner since the Lord has been doing this for the last 7 years, but I did not. I was foolish. Again and again, I would not do what the Holy Spirit continued prompting me to do. Ultimately, this caused me to forget the insight, or the insight would come across flat once I did share it. However, this time, I understood what God was getting me to do. I finally got it! 

 

He was using these inconvenient times to break my autonomy, teach me about commitment, and show me how to work for Him. (I used to struggle with perfectionism, procrastination, and the fear of discomfort. These are all ingredients that can lead one to lack commitment or responsibility). Since I don’t have a boss and can easily not do what I need to do, I need the Father to help hold me accountable. Especially because Renew Ministries is not mine, it’s the Lord’s, and I must steward this ministry well. 

You see, my flesh desired to do life one way, and it was against God's way. Anything that is against God is anti-Christ!

I have never done well working for a boss. I do not know why, but the second I am micromanaged or work for a company that lacks vision or leadership, I quickly start butting heads with them. Now, I am a very loyal person, but I don’t do well when I see corruption in a company or when I care more about the company than it appears the owners do. What I have learned is for me to grow this ministry, I have to learn how to work for the Lord in a way that represents Christ. I have to let go of my assumptions and judgments and do what God tells me to do. It’s not my job to judge people. And allowing other’s sin to stop me from doing right is foolishness. It’s just like what Paul says in Colossians 3:23-24:

 

23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, 24 since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.

 

Therefore, sometimes what the verse above means is doing things you don’t want to do. At times, you definitely don’t want to do it. 

On top of that, God is working to break the fear of poverty and the employee mindset within me. I need Him to do this because much of what the Lord is asking me to do does not bring immediate income. Therefore, God has been trying to teach me how to let Him guide my time and schedule instead of what the world says I should or should not do. That means doing things that may seem weird, awkward, or contrary to what the world says. If you have a fear of man, this will be hard to do. I encourage you to trust the Lord and not focus on what people may say about you. Besides, do you really care what a human has to say about you over the Father? 

My high autonomy has caused a great deal of tension and unnecessary stress in my life. I have been fired from jobs, I have refused to work, half-assed things I didn’t want to do, allowed fear of perfectionism to isolate me, allowed fear of failure to paralyze me, and I have thought I was better than I was. Just like a horse must be broken, my autonomy and pride needed to be broken. Earlier this year, the Lord told me my pride would break this year, and I welcomed the sanctification. I am so happy I agreed to let the Lord break it because it has been so freeing and amazing. 

What I have now learned is:

  1. God will ask you to do things when you don’t want to do them in your flesh. He is not necessarily going to follow the 9-5 schedule. Sorry. He’s not. He is going to tell you to do things when He wants you to do them. Sometimes it will work with your schedule, and other times, it’s going to feel like you are wasting your time.
  2. One reason you aren’t doing what God is asking you to do might be because you feel uncomfortable doing it. You will need to decide if you are going to trust yourself or the Lord.
  3. God may ask you to sacrifice something important to you so you can do what is essential and helpful for His Kingdom, which does not revolve around you.
  4. When God asks you to do things you don’t want to do, what He is actually doing is helping to grow and prune you to be more like Christ. Never tell God to wait. Tell your flesh to wait instead.
  5. Lastly, you are going to need to decide who your master is going to be. Is it going to be your flesh or the Father? Are you going to serve your flesh or the Father? Remember, you cannot serve two masters (Matthew 6:24). 

The more you choose to obey God and do what He asks, the more you will grow in Christ and produce great fruit that will survive the fire. The fruit the Father produces is the MOST satisfying fruit there is. It is easy for humans to grow fruit we believe is essential to God, but it’s hindering our walk with the Lord in reality. Sometimes we think we are doing right when what we are really doing is being self-righteous. I invite you to ask the Holy Spirit where you are falling into your flesh. The answer will save your life. 

Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

1 Thessalonians 5:23 ESV

Prayer:

Holy Spirit, please highlight where my flesh is getting in the way of the Father’s will for my life. Father, I ask you to prune me. Cut off every branch that is dead and show me how I can work with you in the pruning of the good vines. Thank you for everything you do for me. I pray that in everything I do, your will is done and not my will. In Jesus’ name, Amen.